Why I AM Nervous About Blogging

I was/am hesitant to tell anyone about my blogging. The thing is, no one wants to be rejected and also I wondered if I would be grouped into the realm of pretentious self-promoters? At last, here I am I guess. Call me a horrible writer, call me a pretentious self-promoter, just don't call me late for dinner.

Really, I just love writing. From the time I could form letters with my pencil, I never stopped. All through childhood I wrote anything and everything..you name it, I was writing it. I wrote journal after journal full of poetry and stories. I emptied my most private thoughts onto the page, both the silly and the serious. I entered contests, won some and lost some. I wrote essays (as did we all,) and usually loved doing it. I have always been much better explaining as well as forming my thoughts on paper (or as it the trend nowadays, the computer). Still, I was hesitant. Slowly, but surely I have been telling close friends of mine, maybe for affirmation, maybe for self-promotion, I'm not sure. The thing is, that is exactly what I was afraid of...falling victim to being another self-serving person. I struggled with the issue of chronicling my innermost thoughts, something that is private and to be valued and not broadcast, versus writing and allowing maybe one tidbit, one morsel of something I write to ever impact someone else..be it with laughter, be it with tears, be it with a dictionary.

At last this is the great inner debate that has/is waging on inside of me. However, through various and incessant promptings by some close friends and family members to get some of my writing "out there" this is the compromise to which I came, to allow myself to write shamelessly for all of my 3 people or so audience (and anyone else who dares read all this nonsense). So there it is, my fears and shame about blogging and exposing my writings and thoughts. Enough said.